It is gorgeous outside! The leaves are so green, they look edible, the sun is shining, and the air is crystal clear after yesterday's rain. I love Spring!
Mysore practice was a little absent-minded today. Could not pull myself together somehow. I guess I am not working my edge in the poses. Will do better tomorrow, I hope. By the end of the practice I asked David to help me with my stand-ups from UD. He did, observed and said that my major mistake is that I am too anxious to lift my head, changing the balance in the wrong direction. To demonstrate the point, he pressed into my sternum while I was standing up, and I fell down on top of my head! My fall had grace of a sack of potatoes, with a loud "thud". I guess David overestimated a little my ability to get up. Nevertheless, I learned something from the experience - it is not as awful as it seems. In fact, it is not scary at all. So it was good to get this particular fear out of the way. Otherwise, I still can't do it. It feels that I am either missing a whole group of muscles that other people posses, or I am missing a part of the brain which makes the move possible. Very, very frustrating.
But - the sun is shining, the birds are chirping, life is good! Right?
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I'm struggling with the same thing Alfia :) People who are able to stand make it look so easy! You can do it, I believe in you.
Enjoy your beautiful Tuesday!
Thank you, Elaina! I believe in you, too!
I don't think I will EVER have drop backs that I don't think "suck". Pfft. I'm trying to just go with it now.
Wanting to whip the head up fast is really common when you first start standing. It's born of an instinctive urge to see where you're going. Understandable.
I am sure that for the external observer your dropbacks are not as sucky as you think. You are very hard on yourself, Linda. Repeat afer me "I am awesome!" :D
Happy Tuesday!
I am awesome?
I've gotta hop off the self criticism today... yes...
We are all awesome!
Sometimes it's good to experience "the worst that can happen." Does away with the fear.
The way that Boodiba talks about her dropbacks you would think they are truly atrocious. They are pretty! Stop complaining about them - it's enough! Love your dropbacks! Love them! Roar?
Mep? How'd you know I was listening here too? I'm SUCH a crack head!!
I've been mean to me today. Too much drama! Tomorrow I'll be better.
Yeah, I've been a lot nicer to myself in terms of my practice the past several months. Realized, if I want to feel lousy about myself, I have relatives I can talk to. But if I want to feel good, I can give myself that.
Kindness, baby, kindness.
Alfia, how scary! i want to take a good look at your UD and your stand up sometime when it is 'kosher'. i think i could be of some service :)
astralplane Anna!
being kind to onesself i think is one of the most important kinds of ahimsa.
Hi, Anna!
I think we should add "I am awesome" mantra to our daily chants! I wish somebody would treanslate it to sanskrit so it would sound more mantra-like. :D
Tova, darling, I would love you to look at my UD! I need all the help I can get. Thank you!!!
We are awesome, we are awesome...
What I'd like to hear the politicians talking about more is how music could really bring us all closer together.
I can ask Greg to translate "I am awesome." I'd wanted to ask him how you'd say "I shaved my balls for this?" in Sanskrit. But I'm too chicken.
yeah, the head is nothing but trouble, i've found. the mantra is 'head last, head last, head last!'. but of course, it's counter-intuitive. think of your heart showing you the way. You'll get ti!
Hi Alfia
Oh my golly, sorry you fell on your "Coco". LOL. Do you know the story, told by Doug Swenson (David's brother) that Guruji could be assisting you in one of those where you cross your arms and you (trustingly) fall back? Sometimes he would let you fall to the head. Doug said (joking of course) that he would be holding up to where you were about 6 inches from the floor, and then call out to another person, "bad lady," and drop you to your head. Well the reality is that he sometimes did drop you to your head, according to one of my teachers, but it's not supposedly that bad. In any case, I have been told that I also rush to want to get the head up too soon; it's the last thing to bring up. Me, the expert, who hasn't done it yet, but will.
Cheers,
Arturo
Hi, Laksmi: Thank you for your support. It means a lot to me! Heart first will be my new mantra. :)
Good morning, Arturo:
What an interesting story about Guruji. Funny, too! Let me tell you though - it is really not that bad. I thought that a broken neck would be the only possible outcome of this fall. Nope. It seems all those setu bandhasasanas did their job and we now have bull's necks. Or so it seemed to me yesterday.
:)
as mr. iyengar says, 'keep the arms extended so as not to land on your head'. or something like that. simple, good advice.
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